Saturday, 31 December 2016


[24/12/16, 16.29 local time]

Tidak pernah merasa bosan melihat langit, karena setiap waktu ia memiliki kisah yang berbeda.


This year is kinda ugly and beautiful and everything in between.

Mistakes were made, lesson’s learned.

Friends come and go, and those who stay will hopefully be here for the next few years.

Family is blood (and forever), and even when I’m a wanderer, it will always be a place for me to come home.

Really, really thankful for all the experiences I’ve got in life and love and forgiveness and patience and humility and everything.

Bismillah, tomorrow (and year 2017) will be better.

Aamiin yaRabb.


Sunday, 2 October 2016

Who Knew by a.m.r - A One-Shot Story

 Disclaimer: the song is Who Knew by P!nk

The name and storyline is mine, places are either fictional or belong to Japan's Gov.

Happy Reading!

Saturday, 17 September 2016

Rambling number... dunno.

I miss these feelings.
To surround myself by strangers, to learn some new kick-ass culture, to meet new people with their own lifestyle. To realise that there's more in life than my own perspective. To see that, yeah, I'm as significant as that person so how can I be arrogant, selfish, petty, self-centered, when in the grand scheme of things, I'm just another ordinary soul with nothing to show?
I miss this. Take me back, please.
I just want to travel the world. To try new things. To stay humble. To see that there's something outside college and quizzes and exams and trying to not dissapoint my parents. To teach myself about everything a classroom couldn't. To experience people and their lives. To learn about love and life and letting go and everything in between.


Wednesday, 3 August 2016

review: Harry Potter and the Cursed Child

[this review is without spoiler]
"The truth is a beautiful and terrible thing, and should therefore be treated with great caution." -Albus Dumbledore.
(pardon my grammar, bc english is not my first language)


First of all, thank you so much, Jo. Honestly, I never thought that there would be another story about this, not a couple years after the last book, and not in a form of a sequel. But here we are, the eighth story, nineteen years later.

THE PLOT TWIST, THO. I think this is like a fanfiction comes true. All that feeling HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME.

Um. Nevermind.

Well, I start to read Harry Potter on my 3rd grade, so it's actually a decade, more or less, since Harry Potter comes to my life. I think I'm not going to be the person that I am today, not so much anyway, if I didn't read Harry Potter since childhood. Harry grows with me. I follow him through his character development, and his stories, adventures, and friends have become mines too. And to read HP and the Cursed Child, ALL THAT PLOT TWIST OMG, how Harry, Ginny, Draco, and others grow up and become parents, Albus and Scorpius's adventure, and how once again Jo teach me about life, amazing as always.

Once a potterhead always a potterhead, it seems.

Again, thank you, Jo, for this amazing gift.

After all this time? Always.


Friday, 15 July 2016

midnight musing.

Saya memang tidak cantik. Saya memang tidak kurus tinggi putih seperti wanita-wanita di luar sana. Saya memang tidak pintar.

Saya ini jelek. Gendut. Hitam. Pendek. Tidak pintar. IPK ala kadarnya.

Tapi inilah saya. Saya berusaha sebaik mungkin untuk menjadi apa yang diidam-idamkan lelaki di luar sana. Mungkin memang tidak berhasil. Tapi inilah saya.

Saya berusaha menjadi yang terbaik. Saya berusaha berubah menjadi yang lebih baik.

Saya berusaha untuk menerima kamu sebagaimana saya ingin diterima oleh kamu.

Ketika saya berusaha, kenapa kamu tidak?

Apakah saya tidak cukup untuk kamu pertahankan?

Apakah saya tidak pantas menerima kesetiaanmu?

Kamu bilang, saya ini lebih dari cukup.

Mungkin yang kamu maksud bukan cukup untukmu.

Saturday, 11 June 2016

Playlist 'Coffee + Rain = Love'

Hi, fellas!

This is currently my third post. See the title up there? Playlist 'coffee + rain = love' is actually a real playlist on my phone. Just like any other playlist, it consist of 15 songs, and 'cause this is my doin', it has 15 songs that always play on my head when it... is... raining, surprise surprise. Well, this is the list of the songs:

Thursday, 26 May 2016

Today's Rambling

Heya, guys.

Today is a Thursday, 26th of May 2016. I just finished my report for a class assignment. This is my last report for this semester, and I feel like

It's freeing, when you finally finish something that's long due. I mean, I only got to do nine report. Weeeeell, the nine of preliminary reports and nine of final reports. All of it by writing. And then, sitting on the canteen, I opened up the third love of my life and trying to do something productive.

Which lead us to this.


I actually got this picture not too long ago, while I'm surfing through I'm in a mellowed situation, that day.

Well, you're gonna feel like I do too if you suddenly remember the fifth love of your life just got a new love of his life. 

It doesn't make any sense. Sorry.

So! The thing is, I feel alone in my dorm room, no one contacting me (not even my parents, but it's a story for another day), and I feel so lonely. I miss someone to talk to. I miss someone to share my thought, my day, and my life. I miss being able to connect with someone and feel a belonging.



Basically, this is just me found a picture of a poem, feeling nostalgic after finishing my final report, and then feeling lonely without a partner.


Before I becoming too emotional, I'm gonna end this entry. Bhay!

Monday, 9 May 2016

Today's Footnote

dear the love of my life,

this is my first mixtape. it's not even a real mixtape because i'm not making it physically. these are just a bunch of songs, love songs, that makes my day back then. now is monday, 9th of may, year 2016, around 8 pm. i know we (may) never met yet that day, or maybe we did, but we forgot about each others and continue with our lives. the thing is, this is my general love song. this is the love songs i love now. when we fall in love, we may have our own love song, but for me, these songs means so much, especially now. i know that when i'm with you, you are going to be it. the one i'm going to spend my life with. so, be patient, lets making ourselves better first. one day when we meet and fall in love, we're going to be better than our past selves and making each other the best. i love you.

your future wife.